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  “don’t play dumb with me sweetie. I know that you’re seeing that man. He’s nothing but trouble you know,” the man said with a slithering voice.

  “Well what I do is none of your damn business,” she retorted.

  “On the contrary, I think this one is part of my business. He’s luring himself out, and I’m going to take the bait,” the man said.

  All of a sudden, he disappeared into the shadows, and the other thugs that were with him pushed Leia against the wall. She hit the brick hard, the air knocked out of her body, and soon she felt a punch in the gut. She screamed out, and then she felt someone try to tug on her dress.

  “The boss said to kill her right? Shame, she’s such a pretty woman too,” the man said.

  “Yeah. Oh well, this will be fun,” the other man said.

  They both pulled something out of their pockets. Guns. They were going to shoot Leia if she didn’t get out of here. She tried to move, but her arms were pinned and her legs were feeling like two lead weights were present upon them. She felt scared, unsure, and her body felt completely shocked and ill at ease.

  All of a sudden, she heard a noise, and soon the two thugs that were there were down on the ground. She looked, and in front of her were those amber eyes once again.

  Jude.

  He didn’t leave her, but he looked angry. He then marched over to her, gazing upon her with a glance.

  “What the hell are you doing here?” he asked.

  “I could ask you the same thing. What’s going on?” she asked with a frantic face.

  “Well for one, you were almost killed by those two men. I can’t believe this, I knew that I shouldn’t let you get mixed up in my affairs. I was an idiot for allowing that,” he said to her.

  What did he mean by that? Leia was so confused, unsure of what to say or do, but she was frozen in time in front of him, lost in his eyes.

  “What’s going on?” she asked him. She wasn’t going to take an aloof and secretive answer this time.

  He paused, realizing what was happening. He knew that he would have to tell her, but after that, he would leave.

  “I’m sorry Leia, but I’m going to have to tell you. However, you’re not going to like the ending,” he said to her.

  “I don’t care. I just want the answers,” she said.

  “Let’s head over to that café there. I know them, and they’ll be fine with you. They might be able to treat your wounds as well,” he said to her.

  She nodded, feeling like Jell-O at the moment. She didn’t know what to say, what to do, but she followed this man, the man that supposedly had all the answers. It scared her to think that the truth might be one of the worst things to find out, but when they got there, he sat her down at a booth in the corner, getting a first-aid kit and some ice wrapped in a bag.

  “You have a few scratches, but it shouldn’t be too bad. You can use this ice on your stomach,” he explained.

  She thanked him, pressing the cold compress to the area. Leia let out a hiss, but she knew that it was better to ice it now than to be in pain later. After that, Jude glanced at her, and she started to speak.

  “So what’s going on?” she asked him.

  “Well, I didn’t want to tell you this simply because of the implications of this, but I’m going to have to,” he explained.

  “I know that. Let’s not pussyfoot around. I want to hear it straight,” she said to him.

  There was a pause, and then Jude sighed.

  “Fine. You know how I said I had a job that I wasn’t comfortable with telling you about? Well, I’m a mercenary for a hired man. He’s a rich dude on this side of town, and he wanted me to eliminate the drug lord here. I’m supposed to do that, and I will be paid very highly. I also have a beef with this man. He killed my best friend, a guy I used to be comrades with,” he explained to Leia.

  “Are you serious?” she asked.

  “Yeah. My comrade’s name was Kenneth, and he was a decent man. He got mixed up in the ways of that man though, and he paid for it with his life. I’m sorry that it sounds pretty graphic, but it’s hard to come to terms with the fact that your best friend had been sacrificed because of that bastard. I vowed to make sure that he got the deserved justice that he needed, and once I got rid of him, I would be able to finally have a peace of mind. I’m definitely a bit nervous about this, but I know for a fact that it’s best to get this out of the way. I need to, in order to save myself and my future,” he explained.

  She took all of this in, and soon she felt sad. So he had his own agenda.

  “I’m sorry,” Leia replied.

  “It’s not your fault Leia. You didn’t know. They’ll be after you though because of your association with me, and I don’t want that. I don’t want anyone to have to go through the same damn thing I’ve had to. I don’t want you to live in fear of your life,” he told her.

  “But I want to be there for you,” she insisted.

  “You can be. But we can’t be together. At least not until the job is done. I really care about your Leia, and after this job I’m going to go back to the bike shop that I part-time at, and I’ll try to wipe my hands clean of what I did. I have to do this, I have to do it in order to enact vengeance against the man for the guy I lost. I’m sorry if this sounds cruel of me, but this is the action that’s kept me alive for so long,” he told her.

  She looked at him, taking all of this in. “So you’re not going to see me anymore?” she asked.

  There was a pause, and then he nodded. “I can’t. I don’t want you getting hurt. I don’t want you mixed up in my drama, and I don’t want you to think that it’s okay to be stuck with a bastard like me. I know I’m fucked up, and I know that I’m not the ideal man for anyone. I’m sorry Leia, but after this cup of tea together and after I escort you home, I don’t want you to come back to that side of town. I will try to come back for you if I make it out alive. That’s why I never told you about it until now. If I did so any sooner, you would’ve had to say goodbye earlier,” he said.

  Hearing that made Leia’s eyes start to water. She didn’t want to lose him, and frankly it felt unfair that she would have to.

  “It’s not fair. It really isn’t fair,” she said.

  “I know that. Life isn’t fair. I’m sorry that you had to find out now, but I do care about you. When I come back, and if I’m fit to take care of you, I want to express my true feelings. I’ve felt something for you, which is the first time I’ve ever felt something for anyone other than myself. I did shut off emotions for a very long time, and because of that I rarely told others how I felt, and I never felt things for anyone. But with you it’s different. With you, I don’t feel like I have to fake it anymore. Instead, I feel like I can just be myself, and nothing will change that,” he told her.

  She started to let the tears fall, unable to control it. It saddened her to think that she couldn’t even help this man, but that was the way life worked. Life sacks and then you die apparently.

  She hated to think in such a negative manner, but that’s the way she felt. She didn’t feel like she could ever be positive about things ever again, especially after all the hard work she put into understanding herself. She sobbed, but he seemed to care a lot about how she felt.

  “Don’t let me hold you back. Go live your life. Be happy, and I’ll come back for you soon,” he said.

  The two of them finished up their discussion before they headed back to her place. It would be the last time that they saw one another for a very long time, and she knew that it was only going to be something harder to grasp with time. When they finally got to where she lived, they stopped in front of her home, gazing upon one another and trying to figure out what to say.

  “I’m so sorry,” he said.

  “It’s fine. I hope everything goes okay. I don’t want to say that I’ll wait for you, but I will wait for you,” she replied.

  They looked at one another a couple of times before they kissed once again, the two of them feeling
themselves start to engage within each other once again. She didn’t want to do it with him though, at least not now. They pulled away, and Leia smiled.

  “I guess I’ll see you around,” she said.

  “Yeah. I guess,” he replied.

  The two of them parted ways, and soon she felt nervous about everything. She really didn’t know what to do with herself now, for it felt like a big void had appeared since then. She wanted to cry, but at the same time, she didn’t want to create any more problems for herself. Guess it was best for her to just give it up, and hopefully things would be better for her in the future.

  Chapter Four

  It had been about three months since they said goodbye. Three months since everything had happened, and she had no idea where he was now. She tried to figure out a way to send him messages, but apparently the man isn’t listed anywhere in search engines. It was scary to think about, that’s for sure. A part of her wondered if maybe, just maybe there was a way for her to get to him. She didn’t think so though, so it might be best to wait it out.

  Waiting it out. That’s what he told her to do, and that’s what she would have to do. It was scary to think about it, that’s for sure. She didn’t know what to do with herself, and the fact that she couldn’t stop thinking about him made it hard. She did continue on with her studies, and she did work, but it was hard to let go of the feelings that she felt for this man.

  One day, she was closing up shop, when he owner came over and looked at her, a smile on her face.

  “You look the happiest you’ve been in a long time sweetie,” she said.

  “Oh. Sorry. I’ve been thinking about things,” she admitted. No doubt her mind was filled with the thoughts of only one man.

  “What’s wrong? You’ve been feigning happiness for a long time,” she asked.

  Leia paused. She didn’t want to tell this woman about Jude. Hell, she didn’t want to get in trouble because of it. Her boss wasn’t against her dating, but she was more worried about the implications.

  “Just a guy. I’ve been thinking about how he’s doing. That’s all,” she said.

  “Was he a friend or something?” the lady asked.

  “Yeah. He used to be close with me, but things got in the way. We had to separate for a reason, and I feel bad that he had to move away because of the fate he had been given. It sucks, but whatever. I’m not going to worry about it,” she told her boss.

  “Well don’t worry about it, child. Remember, we were all young at one point, and if you two are meant to know one another, then time will tell. Seeking him out isn’t going to get you anything, but rather it’s going to just make things harder on you,” she said to Leia.

  Her boss did have a point. It’s not like she could go look for him or anything anyways.

  “You’re right. But what about this feeling that I have?” she asked her.

  “Think about the good times the two of you will have when he gets back. If your friendship is meant to be, you will make everything work out in the end. That I’m sure of,” she told Leia.

  As much as Leia wanted to fight this, the woman had a point. It was obvious that she would just have to wait for the right moment, the moment where she can tell Jude her feelings, and they can finally express themselves.

  “Thank you,” she said

  “Good luck,” her boss replied.

  Leia walked out, thanking herself for coming clean with her boss to a degree. It had been bothering her a lot recently, and she felt like it was best if she told someone about it. It was definitely going to be harder to cope with the feelings over time, but she only wanted to focus on the good in life, and not the bad.

  When she got back to her place though, there was a figure standing at the doorway. He was dressed in all back, but it seemed that he had a couple of bandages on his body as well. She immediately parked the car, taking a moment to pinch herself. Was it really him? Was she dreaming?

  She didn’t know anymore.

  The only thing that she did know was that she needed to speak with this man. Without any second thoughts, she raced out of the car and over to the doorway, looking at Jude. He was there a bit battered and bruised, but he had a smile on his face, one that she missed.

  “You’re alive,” she said.

  “That I am. I managed to get out of there with just a few injuries, but yes, it’s done. I’m sorry,” he said.

  “It’s fine. I’m just so fucking glad that you’re alive. Let’s head on in. If you’re still injured, I can take care of you. It’s my turn to help,” she said.

  Jude nodded in appreciation, and soon the two of them were inside. They headed to her couch, and she placed Jude there, looking at him with a weak smile. She then went to get her first aid kit, making sure that she had extra bandages. When she got there, she started to clean up a few of the bruises that she saw on his body.

  “So what happened? I mean, it did take a while, but I’m happy that you took him down,” she said.

  “Yeah. Ivar was his name. He was a total bastard. I had to find him first off, and after we parted ways it proved to be a lot harder than I expected. However, I learned of his hideout, but then I realized that it was guarded by a lot of people, and I had to be stealthy about getting to him. I then had to undergo a secret mission to eliminate Ivar and make sure that he never caused trouble again. That mission was done last night, and it took me about twelve hours to get out of there. I managed to infiltrate the base, and soon I was able to beat Ivar. I had a lot of worry that I wouldn’t make it out alive, but then, I remembered you, and I knew that I needed to make sure that I kept myself alive, at least for you,” he said.

  She felt an overwhelming sense of pride as she thought about this.

  “Well thank you. I’m glad that you’re safe,” she said.

  “You and me both. I did get a few gunshot wounds, but I was able to sustain the damage and get out. That’s why I have the bandages. The bullets have been removed and the wounds clean, but I do need to change the bands every so often,” Jude explained.

  Leia nodded, doing just that. He did hiss in pain a little bit at the feeling of the wound, but she knew that she needed to do this. Once that was done though, Jude sat back, sighing.

  “So yeah. I eliminated Ivar, took the base down, and completed my mission. I got paid well, the amount of money agreed to and then some. He did ask me about another job, which was where I had to give him the truth,” Jude explained.

  “Oh no. What happened with that?” Leia asked.

  “He was upset, but he understood. He wished me the best, and then I went to the bike shop. I got a more normal job now, but I still am considered a bad boy piece of scum by society, so I don’t know what to think,” he said.

  “You should be happy. You got rid of a bad person and managed to get out with few injuries,” she said.

  “I know that, but I’m still shocked that I managed to do such a thing. It was still shocking in a sense, but I didn’t know what to do afterwards. I knew that I had to see you though,” he said.

  “Same. I knew that I had to see you soon too. That’s why I was happy to see you when you got back,” she told him.

  “I was as well. There was a reason for that though, a bigger reason than what you have,” he told her.

  “What was it?” she asked Jude.

  He then moved closer, gazing upon her and smiling.

  “You’re the first person I’ve ever made who has made me think about someone other than myself and the mission. I never warmed up to anyone, and I thought that one-night stand was just going to pan out into nothing. But then, we found one another. As much as I don’t think fate is real, I feel like something was telling us deep down that we had to be together. I know that fate is very hit or miss in life, but I believe that it was meant to be for us,” he said.

  Leia smiled, knowing that it was the right thing to hear.

  “That makes two of us then,” she replied.

  “Good. Because I love you Leia. I know
that sounds crazy, but it’s the truth. It’s the real, honest truth that I’ve told myself for a long time, that I’ve wanted to express to you since we reconnected and learned about one another. I’m glad I did what I needed to do, because now I can be safe and sound with you by my side,” he said.

  She looked at him, realizing that this was it, that this was the life that she wanted to have. All of a sudden, the two of them moved closer to one another, glancing at each other with expressive eyes. She stared at Jude, the dark-haired beauty that she fell for. She couldn’t believe it, but this was the first time ever she had felt something so strongly for a person, and she didn’t feel ashamed for it.

  “I think I love you,” she admitted.

  “I think I love you too. I promise I’ll never let you go again,” he replied.

  The two of them pushed their lips against one another, the first kiss that they’ve had without painful emotions, without the feeling of lust from a one-night stand, and it was the first kiss where they could fully express their feelings towards one another that they had never felt before.

  Chapter Five

  The two of them started to kiss one another, letting their lips brush against one another in an erotic fashion, loving the way that it felt. It was different from what she expected, simply because of the fact that she had never had an experience like this with a man before. It was nice, that she had to admit, and she knew for a fact that it was certainly going to be something amazing.

  Soon, they let their lips mingle with one another in a slow and seductive manner, both of them enjoying the passion that the other was giving to them. It seemed strange, but in a way Leia felt like she was about to already go crazy with pleasure. Jude was kissing her with equal fervency, but then he slipped his tongue into her. They started to let their tongues mingle with one another in ways neither of them ever expected, and soon they were tasting one another in a slow, languid fashion. This was heaven in her mind, a true heaven that she enjoyed more than anything before.