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  From that moment and up until I reached the hotel, it was like I literally was outside of and above my body watching myself being directed, on a wild goose chase by the universe, to reach the Dream Hotel at a specific time. It was a distance away but I was determined to just walk quickly there. On the way, it would rain all of the sudden and I would duck into stores until it stopped. One of the stores that I ended up running into was a CRYSTAL shop of all places! This was a beautiful non-coincidence because I love crystals and use them when I do healings on others. I held a few of them and my hands and arms were buzzing with energy.

  As I left the store with my hands and arms buzzing, with my guides having a meeting in my ear, and this eager anticipation to get to my destination, the wind was thrashing everything about. My psychic intuition was on fire! This was the FIRST time that I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I was on my way to meet a soul-mate.

  I recognized I was running the soul-mate energy that I had described earlier. Whenever I run it, I feel like I'm glowing and am sending out an intense vibration. People were sensing something as I walked down the street because they all were smiling at me, guys and girls. It's simply a VERY positive energy radiation that I think people can't quite put their finger on.

  Anyway, I finally reached the hotel practically out of breath from almost running all of the way down Collins Avenue. It started to rain heavily right when I entered the building and jumped into the elevator with a couple who ran in with me. They were yelling at each other because apparently the girl had taken them to Dream Nightclub first because that's what the directions said. It was another funny non-coincidence.

  When I got to the rooftop, I was surprised there were still people scattered about since it had rained on and off the entire day. I immediately ran into a few people I knew from a previous party during the week and I met a girl in the ladies’ room who invited me to come and drink in her booth with her friends. I couldn't even get to where the majority of the people were because I was being pulled in different directions by people. I knew this was still the universe orchestrating the right timing. It was all surreal.

  Eventually, by the time the sun had gone down, I made it to where the DJ was playing. The energy of the crowd was magical in itself, I think because of that buzzing energy in the air from the on and off storm. Everyone was smiling and very friendly as they all danced and enjoyed the music. I was up front enjoying myself as well and then I started to become curious where the guy was that I was supposed to meet. Up until that point I had let the universe guide me around but for some reason, I decided to look around me to see where this guy was. I looked behind me to the left. Nothing...I looked behind me to the right and there he was! I was not shocked in any way but was excited to see him. I recognized him immediately as knowing him before. Not in this lifetime but from another time and place, for sure from our time on the other side. I knew his essence so well. He was very tall with olive skin, brown eyes and hair. He was very cute, too, but I was more interested in reconnecting with his energy again.

  I made eye contact with him a few times and he smiled at me. We naturally ended up next to each other, introducing ourselves. His name was Solteri and he was of Greek descent. I wanted to give him a big hug and tell him that it had been a long time and it was so nice to see him again (haha). Of course, I knew that most others aren't able to tune into the intuition, so I didn't say anything like that. I could also tell he didn't sense what I could even though he seemed really drawn to me. I do think that I said something about being compelled to talk to him though.

  A few minutes after we started talking, it began raining again so he grabbed my hand and we ran to find shelter on the rooftop. We kept changing directions because there didn't seem to be any coverings anywhere. Then we ran across the rooftop bridge that led to the elevator because it had a little indoor area next to the elevator. It was so romantic and almost like a movie, running in the rain, hand in hand with someone you had just met.

  We ended up alone in this little room except for the lady manning the elevator. The topic of soul-mates came up because I think in my ‘electric’ state I said something to him about how I had to meet him, just like I was drawn to meet soul-mates I'd had in the past. I didn't tell him that I knew he was one too, because I didn't want him to think I was nuts. Because of what I was saying, he kept probing me to tell him what a soul-mate experience was like because he'd never had one before. I tried to be brief in my description because those were past experiences and they weren't important, but he was so inquisitive and fascinated about it that I kept explaining what the experience felt like. The ironic part was that this whole time I was thinking, "He doesn't even know he's a soul-mate of mine and he is about to experience this with me!" I was laughing inside because I knew what he was about to experience.

  Then we got on the subject of how I do energy healings because of my first encounter with my first soul-mate. He asked me if I could heal his head injury that occurred while playing professional soccer. I told him that I could do one at another time. Anyway, the lady manning the elevator, who had been silent the whole time, chimed in and said that she was a healer, too, and had healed her father of cancer. It was such a synchronistic moment and we looked at each other in surprise. The entire night was one thing after another, lining up as it was supposed to.

  The rain stopped again and we went back to the party for a while, the whole time holding hands as he introduced me to his friends and we enjoyed the DJ. We ended up kissing by the bridge and for some reason we both decided to leave the party to be alone. It was like an adventure because we didn't have anywhere in mind to go. We just headed down to the ground level and were walking on the Main Street. The energy was really intense and we were holding each other tightly and every few steps we would stop to kiss passionately. By passionately, I mean transferring energy by locking our lips together. He kept looking at me like he couldn't believe this was happening to him, even though I had just explained it all to him by the elevator. He had a look of surrendering to the feeling and allowing himself to get swept away in it. It was like a magical dream because even though the rain had stopped, there were these HUGE drops of rain randomly falling from the sky, all spread out maybe about two feet apart from each other. These drops were hitting us sporadically on our eyelids and on our faces, as we kissed and embraced each other. People were walking by us and we were in a world of our own. This continued as we walked at least a mile down Collins. It was so beautiful as we smiled and connected on that soul level.

  We ended up walking around South Beach by the stores, totally content with nowhere to go, and eventually ended up at my place for a while with my friends who were there already. The friends who were visiting my roommate were all from Toronto, Canada just like Solteri. NOT a coincidence (haha). Eventually, I walked him out because we both had plans in the morning and there didn't seem to be a place to go without being surrounded by people.

  We ended up standing on the sidewalk saying good-bye for about an hour, just holding and kissing each other. He kept saying that he didn't want to leave me, so we said we would try to see each other before he left the day after.

  This is a brief testimonial from my roommate:

  “We were listening to music and hanging out when Natalie came in after Solteri left. She was absolutely glowing, her eyes were wide and she had the biggest smile on her face. She was literally shaking as she told me the story of how she met her soulmate. She was so excited and was giving off so much energy. Whether you believe in soulmates or not, you could tell something amazing had happened to her. Even though I had only known Natalie briefly, I could tell she was not the type of person who blindly falls in love and throws herself at the first person who shows interest in her. I could really see and feel what she had previously told me about soulmates come to life.”

  Numerous attempts were made on both of our parts to meet up but we both had tickets for certain parties already and plans to go places with friends. Nothing lined up t
o where we could meet up, so sadly he left without saying goodbye in person. He did tell me how he truly had the most magical night in the rain with me and that he would try to arrange to come visit me sometime. Because he lived in Canada, I knew that we would never see each other again, but I was fine with that because it was such a beautiful experience and I was grateful for receiving it. Naturally, I had no expectations or attachment to any outcome because I knew better to just enjoy the moment, and if something is meant to be, then it will be.

  We stayed in touch briefly after our time together, but it never went further.

  ~Afterword~

  To my surprise, a year after the last contact with Patrick that I spoke about in Chapter One, I received a message from Sonja, Patrick’s wife! This seemed so random to me and really late. I was so indifferent and detached from thinking about Patrick at that point but I was a little curious to see what she wanted. She asked me in a very polite tone if I could tell her when I dated Patrick. She was French so she struggled somewhat with English. She wrote, “I’m pretty sorry to come bothering you this Monday. I’m sure you have some other stuff to think and do but I just got a few questions. I’m Patrick’s wife and I was just wondering how and when did you meet him?? I’m sure you’ll understand me. Thank you so much.”

  Apparently, he told her that our encounter was before he’d even met her, which was four years before I knew him. She believed him for some odd reason even after reading my message on Facebook and she said that she was even touched when she read my message to him. She said that she recently had started to think that it didn’t make sense that I would contact him years later asking for answers and she wanted to know from me what really happened. I was shocked that he had gotten out of that one so easily but at the same time not wanting to put myself in a position that brought any negativity to me. She kept asking politely and I reluctantly told her the time frame and VERY briefly that we had a strong connection but that I had no idea he was married.

  What transpired from her contacting me was months of the two of us communicating, almost as friends. It was such a long conversation because at first he had denied he was with me when they were together. Then he would tell her some of the truth and lie about the rest, until finally, after all of her further questioning, he had no choice but to tell her the whole truth.

  It was a very weird twist and ending to the whole Patrick saga! I had always wondered what really happened with him and why he’d let himself have a connection with me like that if he was married, engaged, or even dating someone. I really never even knew if he was single at the time we met or had any explanation at all about anything. Well, I got most, if not all of my answers through his wife. She reached out to me to get answers but really I had manifested answers for myself through the process, as awkward as it was.

  She responded pretty badly, as you can imagine, when I first told her the time frame. She kept asking me if I could have had the time frame wrong because Patrick was still sticking to what he’d told her. So I kept giving her details of what was going on in his life at the time, what car he was driving, where he was living, etc. I even had my diary page with the date on it, and of course I KNEW when it was because he was such an important person at that time as my life took a turn after meeting him. Then apparently, Patrick’s sister and his parents admitted to her that they knew about me and even received the letter that I wrote to them. Sonja was devastated and was threatening to divorce him. It was like something out of a soap opera to me because she ended up pouring her heart out to me. I felt bad for her but I still really didn’t want any part of the drama. Towards the end of our communication her mind was all over the place and she even at one point suggested that I should take him if I wanted him (haha). She wrote, “If you want to do something with this guy...because maybe you can save something now...of the intense relationship you got...I mean I don’t know...I’m lost. Maybe he would be happier with you if all of this happened because of the feeling you got for each other.” I knew she was just devastated and of course I wanted nothing to do with him anymore.

  What I did find out though was that they were engaged when I met Patrick. He had met her on a trip to Paris and they had fallen in love and she became pregnant. She said that he asked her to marry him on the Eiffel Tower and it was a romantic love story according to her. She also said that my description of our meeting sounded similar to how they were together. She didn’t mention any energy or anything but I guess the romantic part was similar. She was commenting that her and I looked a lot alike, which I would have to agree on. Her thoughts about Patrick were that he always seemed to her to be very loving and genuine, just like I had read from him. I did wonder though why she made a profile for him to see if he was cheating if she really trusted him.

  Apparently, he was in San Francisco securing a job and preparing to bring her and their baby boy back here when we met. He was here for a few months. He did go back to Paris around the time that he said he was leaving but it was to retrieve them. They were married about four months after that. It was really weird looking at the wedding pictures of them and knowing that he’d been close to me while they were engaged! I honestly was glad that I hadn’t ended up with him.

  I never found out through him why he let himself get close even though he was with her but I can only assume that he didn’t intend to cheat and the connection snuck up on him as much as it did with me. I was the one who was asking to hang out after all. Sonja also told me that she asked him if he had feelings for me and by the look on his face she could tell that he had. None of that really mattered at that point but it was just a way for me to comprehend why everything had happened. I didn’t see anything as right and wrong, only as something that was meant to happen. I knew why it had happened to me and I hoped that they both could grow from the experience in some way. I know that I will see Patrick and all of my soul-mates again when I cross over and we will congratulate each other for a job well done. Life is all like a play after all.

  Sonja and I stopped talking after we both got all of our answers and I knew that it hurt her to talk to me so that was fine. I had wondered if they were really going to get a divorce or if they would work it out for their son. After several months I had a very vivid dream that she was pregnant again and they ended up staying together because of it. One night and about a year later, out of curiosity I decided to look on the Facebook to see if I was correct. They had another baby and the time frame looked as if she were pregnant at the time she was finding out about the affair. I couldn’t be sure about that but that’s just my guess. I have no idea if they are still together now but I hope that they found happiness.

  ~Conclusion~

  At this point in my life I am so happy and content with everything going on, although at one point I distrusted the universe, my guides, and my destiny. I kept thinking that I was cursed because none of the encounters lasted even though I tried my best to stay positive and think that there must’ve been a purpose for it all. Now, I’m truly grateful for each and every experience and I know that nothing is about the end result. Life is about the journey and I’ve been able to manifest all of these miracles. One of my favorite quotes is from the book "Conversations With God." God, who is being channeled through Neale Donald Walsch says, "You are traveling through this Space/Time Continuum to know yourself and to experience this fully, and then to re-create yourself anew in the next grandest version of the greatest vision you ever held about Who You Really Are." I believe that I re-created myself anew with each of these soul connections, which was ultimately a reflection of myself in their eyes and a direct alignment with source energy through them.

  One of the healings that I do is called Theta healing. It is such a magical healing modality that has changed my life. Part of the reason that I was able to manifest some of the soul-mates is because of the techniques used in theta healing. Vianna Stibal is the creator of this modality and she quoted in her Soulmate manual, “It is likely that once you begin to manifest for a soul-mate
you will bring in more than one at the same time. This is because you will be giving a signal out to the universe that you really love yourself, and that you are ready. When the signal begins to be sent out and broadcasted, it is likely that more than one soul-mate will be brought into your life to answer this call.” Apparently, this is what happened in my case. She does say that instead of asking for a most compatible soul-mate, you should ask for your most compatible life mate. She says, “If you command for a most compatible soul-mate now, it starts pulling in whoever is the most compatible person that has the closest to compatibility at this space in time.” I sure did find that out!

  Finally, a miraculous synchronicity happened just as I was finishing this book. I KNOW that it was orchestrated by creator so that I could conclude this chapter of my life and this book!

  A few days ago, I signed up for a theta healing because a healer was offering free healings to bring in more clients. I wouldn’t have signed up otherwise because I really feel like I didn’t have anything that needed to be cleared. I told the practitioner, whose name is Simon, that I wanted to do a healing to see if I had any remaining blocks that might keep me from manifesting more money and a career that I love. I’m already doing pretty well in those areas but I couldn’t pass up a free healing to see if I could create even more magic.

  So anyway, Simon who knows nothing about me by the way, asked creator to show him if I had any blocks. What he told me was that creator said that my spirit guides are not for my highest and best good at the moment. It’s not that they are trying to do anything wrong, it’s just that most of them are part of my soul group who were assigned to work with me in this lifetime and I need them to progress upward on my spiritual path. I chose, before this incarnation of course, to move on with them but they aren’t ascending as fast as I am and therefore aren’t able to assist me as well as they should. I also can only progress so far because I don’t want to ascend further than they are because I will end up leaving my soul group for a more spiritually advanced one.